God! i'll stay and fight!

Been feelin weird these days...
start to wonder if it is okay for me to be selfish once in a while..
Lord, pls gimme strength to move on..
Though alot is troubling me now..
I know You will always be by my side..
But i'm juz wondering. is it okay for me to think bout myself juz for a moment?? Be selfish??

Stand firm in yourself!!

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream–and not make dreams your master,
If you can think–and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings–nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And–which is more–you’ll be a Man, my son!

Poem ByRudyard Kipling

Rush Assignment!

Caffeine to keep me up!

My Battlefield!!

Okay.. i dun really understand why i always end up doin assignments last minute.. But this times assignment was tough.. haha.. took me all night 2 finish..
THANK GOD i was able to finish this.. Marks may be lower.. But who cares??
hahaha..
-5.49 a.m.

p/s : Good Luck to Vincent, Joshua, Pui Yee... ahha

Restructuring!!

Yeap.. last week spent alot! Watch 3 movies.. yup.. 3!! This week, i have to restructure.. spend less!! Eat only when really hungry.. Spend only when absolutely have to.. Wat else??
Bring food to college and eat..haha..

Officially Broke

Ladies & gentlemen, i am officially broke^^ haha.. i went 4 movie 2 consecutive days and serves me right to be broke.. But i had a great time..
Last nite tagged along david, Robin, Chi Joon, Jen, Yi Woon, Mun Suet, err... Wei jing and Ah Wong watch movie.. Pandorum.. as usual, we smuggled food inside( a practice i've perfected throughtout da years..hahaha) the movie was quite okay.. and fyi, i was sitting low coz its really cold n i Do sit like dat in movies. Not coz i'm scared..

Then today, went watch Cloudy... Meatballs with Ah Wong and da in my opinion very rich person^^, PuiSan. Lucky, i sweet talked my way in having all three tickets at student price.. lol.
So din spend dat much.. later sat in foodcourt 4 few hours to w8 4 jam to subside.. Then go back lor..haha.. Anyways, had a great time^^ yup.. no photos.. haha

Richard & Sally's Wedding

These were taken last Saturday.. damn lazy put in caption.. Enjoyed the wedding.. Congratulations to Richrad n Sally.. May God continue to bless you!
Finally i updated my blog.. haha..
ps. Ying Ying n Tian, u guys so lucky get chance to appear in my blog.. hahaha

I am Back!!

Hey hey.. i am back!! haha.. suppose 2 b back earlier but took some time 4 me 2 remember da password..haha..

Last few weeks was so wonderful..haha.. our much anticipated A4J was over.. Gosh, over dy..
Learned so much in dis conference.. Thank God! Ps. Philip was great!! Powerful sermons after sermons.. Those who I have invited but din go.. U really missed out! haha.. Next time u guys come ya.. haha. Joshua Band was great too!! haha.

Aite.. will try spend more time update my blog..haha.. chiaoz

Month of May so far.. Magnificent..

Yeah!! haha MU are Champions

Your New American Idol..

Coming up next Champions League final..

Biggest Event of the year:
A4J

Down again..

Sigh... I hit a bump again.. Lord!! Is it me or is the road getting harder and bumpier now? All i am wishing now is i dun once again leave u Lord.. My life has been so worthless before i came back into your presence.. Sigh... why is it so hard now?? Help!! I have gotta gather all my strength to FIGHT!! I must build my faith from scratch again.. Lord!! Please see me through this!!

New vision, New mission, New Challenge

very excited now^^ Got new challenge dy... Our church now goin radical..
We are going all out 2 fight 4 Christ!! My cg also goin through changes.. now we r going 2 lead youngsters 2 know God.. last few weeks have been amazing!! Our church is growing every week.. The fire of revival is now setting CYC ablaze!! Let God's fire continue 2 BURN!!

Fliers 4 jie tou bu dao... Brendon also semangat..haha

Tough Day

Today was really a tough 4 me.. i was so bitterly disappointed 2day..
Can't really think straight da whole day.. I mean i always regarded u as a fren!! I keep u in my prayers everday! I really meant good 2 u from da bottom of my heart.. and yet.. dis is how i am treated.. Wat's disappointing is dat we are frens and we indeed know each other. But u treat me as if i was some1 u dunno.. Dam disappointing!! But it was oso bcoz of dis God told me dat he will let me see wat i want 2 see as long as i keep my faith in him.. I dunno wat's happening here, but i wish u best of luck in ur future in case dis continues... God Bless U!!

March... a month of terror..

haha... i juz realised dis but dis month seriously got a lot of frens birthday.. Starting wif well of course me.. 1st of March.. Then got Tim Ci lar, My zone leader Lik Foong lar, Then got wat's dat guys name again?? haha kidding.. Lih Yeh lar.. Then Pui Yee lar.. Then on da last day of da month oso got le..haha Got 2 person birthday on da 31st March le..haha my Ah Ma, Jane Gan and my other fren Mui Sing... But then these are da only 1 i can remember.. When i read every1 else's blog.. i was surprised 2 see so banyak orang was born on da month of march..haha
How bout dat.. 1st day of da month got birthday...Last day of da month oso got birthday..
Dis all oso naturally means more money will b spent =P haha... No wonder i am sooo broke dis month... Next year March muz b more careful...haha... Joking only.. To those who had birthday celebrations dat i went... It was fun and really cool.. To those whom i din go.. Sorry le... but Happy birthday...or should i say happy belated birthday!! haha.. Juz posted dis 4 fun..

Pui Yee Birthday Celebrations

Birthday Girl

Photos courtesy of Isaac & ZW( i stole actually..haha)
more pictures 2 come.. i think..

Mama Birthday Dinner

Bryan and mama

Brendon and mama

Lauren cannot stop eating le..haha

Popo, The Best Nagger In The Whole Wide WORLD!! =P

Papa n Brendon waiting 4 da food..(Brendon fel asleep dy..lol)

Me, Papa and Brendon

Melanie and Mama

Melanie, Lauren and Mama

Yeah right... Like I am ever going 2 come eat here ever again..
(Food not nice, small portion summore..haha)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA... LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!

My Birthday Celebration.. Finally upload..

19th March Another Lonesome dayT.T

Goodness me!! I am feeling all emotional again!! Argh!! Really feeling pressure wei...
Coursework stacking up.. But I never really mind doin courseworks all by myself.. Wat i am lamenting is why am i always doing things alone.. Am i really dat insignificant?! Coz really no one really ever bothers talking 2 me.. It's always da long walk 2 college alone and da long walk bak home alone.. sigh... wat happened 2 all my friends?? i really feel hopeless sometimes.. Am i really dat uncool?? I am finding my once burning passion towards studyin waning.. I Need FRIENDS WEI!! Wat happened 2 college being really cool? Wat happened 2 college bein a place 2 find besties n BFFs?? If dis goes on sorry la wei.. i have 2 switch colleges again.. Dad n mum... even if u don't agree.. i'll do it!! Sick of wandering alone after classes.. sick being by myself all da time..
Sigh.. envy wei when i see other students having a group of friends 2 hang out wif after classes..T.T
And dat is da conclusion of my LONESOME 19TH MARCH!! Oh and it's a thursday if u wanted 2 know!!

Encounter God Camp

LORD!!! PLS HELP ME!!!!

I am confused, very very confuse!!! Wat am i supposed 2 do?
ARGH!!! I pray everyday dat a solution would somehow appear!!
HELP!!! PLS!! I can't take it anymore!!!

Best day Of my life so far!!

Last Saturday..I celebrated wif my frens from church... Believe it or not.. dat was da 1st time i ever celebrated my birthday wif anyone else than my family.. Really appreciated it... Thx guys.. love u all soooo much!! Apart from dat.. i was really happy dat night coz i know dat a soul was saved. I invited my fren 2 churchand i prayed whole week 4 her.. And she accepted Christ!! Amen!!
It was really a joyous moment 4 me coz i know dat God really answers our prayers.. I really hope she would continue 2 fit in wif us and continue 2 seek GOD's Word.. This was da best day of my life..
Still waiting 4 photos.. maybe will upload them next time when i got them..

Got My SPM Cert.

Today wake up 5 am watch MU play 4 a while then started exercising... After dat when bak 2 sleep.. Wake up at 11 something then take bath n stuff went 2 St. John's wif couple of frens 2 get original spm cert.. Saw Guo Qin n Kenneth dere.. CHeh!! haha.. da result still da same.. haha.. i tot got mistake they will add 1 or 2 more A tim.. But i'll have 2 admit.. it was nice 2 be bak at my alma mater.. Nostalgic.. nostalgic.. ( i oso met kok peng, peng mun, quan yen, chee leong, rajev, preethip,chee kien and so on lar) After dat hang out wif my bros... Then off 2 Pavilion again(2nd time dis week).. We went 2 watch Slumdog millionaire.. Dis movie quite nice ar.. I recommand it...haha
Me n KF then sengaja nak mainkan mh n his gf 1.. but tak jadi.. haihz. wasted.. Then we went makan Pizza hut...AGAIN!! haihz.. no wonder i broke dis month.. Then we went home!! haha da end.. Oh if u r wondering ..i went 2 pavilion yesterday 2 watch Punisher wif Alex n mh...Then ate pizza hut..haha.. So all in all... 2day activity quite senseless lar.. all da activities are sooo RANDOM as well.. Wallet oso dry dy..haihz..

Pressure!! No money!!

cuthaihz... dis month very cham ar!!! no money le!! Stupid college ...have 2 pay exam fees...RM500 le..
They tryin 2 rob me ar!!! Haihz... no choice oso... shoot! spent too much dis month.. Muz watch out next month... Dis month wanna go church camp oso no money ar!! Hair long dy oso no money pay 4 hair! LOL... BUDGET! BUDGET! BUDGET!

Hahaha

Woohoo!! This year might juz be another glotious Year 4 Manchester United!! haha..

Really hope they do well in da coming competitions..

Haihz.. Arsenal... disappointing lar..haha

Manutd All Da Way!!!

My Promise

Dear Lord, I know dat a lot of times i really disappoint you. i am really sorry 4 being so weak sometimes. I hereby promise dat i would change. I would live by Your Word. I will live life Holy. I will resist temptaions dat will only distance me from You. I will always put You 1st in my life and Never deliberately do things dat will disappoint You. I promise...

Feeling lonely, Peer Pressure n Makin wrong decisions.. sigh

2nd post of da day.. sigh.. i feel dat i juz have 2 write out how i feel..for da past 3 weeks i feel very very helpless.. i keep on wondering 4 da last 3 weeks.. why am i always alone?? I seem 2 always be alone... i can't get decent frens in college.. my class only got 9 ppl wei.. then whenever i feel like goin out 4 movies.. i can't find ppl 2 watch wif me.. i dunno.. i juz feel like i dun have frens at all.. i've been going out wif da same few persons over n over again.. i seem 2 have lost all my other frens. Right now, even wif da ones closest 2 me... i can sense dat there is already a gap between us all.. we don't seem 2 be close like before..maybe its juz me.. i mean everone seems 2 have a group of ppl 2 go out wif.. but me? Nope.. i don't have 1.. i would always hang out wif 1 person at a time or juz go out all by mself.. i am feeling really really emotionally stressed out..
Wanted 2 go play basketball 2 temporary 4get da problems.. but can't find kaki 2 play.. But i sort of got use 2 it dy.. can't really find anyone 2 do anything nowadays.. I am really JEALOUS of everyone else now.. Really tired lar.. tired of acting like i am happy in front of everbody.. especially my parents, i nvr wanted them 2 worry bout me as they always seem 2 have problem of their own. They always give everything they have 2 me n my siblings and they are alway so frugal to their own needs, so i always put on a jovial face in front of them.. to them i am always happy,nvr have problems.. i juz can't let them worry bout me..

Peer Pressure= SIN... I am surrounded by sin!!! Have 2 fight on!!! Can't fall into sin again!!
Lord!! HELP ME!!! Not only sin, It is also against my own believes!! So i HAVE TO FIGHT ON!!
Gonna stay away!! ( can't really tell u wat it is)


I guess in da end i really miss my st john's life..goin movies after school.. sigh.. those were da days.. Now.. i seem 2 be making wrong decisions evertime..from goin Tar college 2 shifting 2 Segi kl.. seemingly.. i juz dun feel quite at ease at these colleges..
OWH!! Why is dis always happening!! I've always felt like i should be at college like taylor's or sunway... but wat 2 do? my families finance is not always pleasing.. 4 parent's sake go cheaper colleges lo.. This is da worries of a filial son.. All i want 2 do now is hurry up and finish my studies n start working my ass off and help ease my parent's burden.. Guess i can't help it but 2 hang in there... 1 year only mah!! been tellin myself dat.. Then hopefully can find a college dat really really suits me n get on wif my degree programme..

Haihzz.. hopefully i can get pass dis period of depression soon.. i am haging now on faith only le.. My only person 2 speak wif of my problem is GOD... so i fully believe dat God would help me and solve my problems 4 me.. I HAVE FAITH!! So if YOU noticed i am not actin like usual dis few weeks.. dis is why. (Wow!! i wrote an essay.. haha long time nvr write dy.. i even differentiate wif colours)

Played wif da baby from neighbour..

Dis morning played wif da baby from neighbour.. very cute wei.. Juz woke up n i wasn't in a good mood.. but when i saw da baby.. i felt happy dy.. played wif him da whole morning and temporary 4got my problems.. haha

sigh...sigh of relieve

2day... some 1 said sumthing 2 me dat really hit me...
i was pretty upset.. i then prayed and ask God why these kind of things always happen 2 me..
these unpleasent things... then i prayed 4 a while and opened da bible..
I then suddenly stopped at dis verse
Jeremiah 29:11-13...
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
After dat...i went from upset 2 upbeat...
thank you Lord !!

Kelly Clarkson and Taylor Swift Rocks!!!

I am sooo in love wif Love song by taylor swift.. Omg...dat song is just so wonderful!!!
I recommend it!!
saya juga recommend kelly clarkson's 'My life would suck without you'!!!
Love these songs a lot wei!!
haha

CNy visitation!!

Last Thursday was probably the most exhilarating day of my life..haha
Me, Zheng Wei, Wai Keat, Tim Ci, Tao Kei, Phooi Yee, Pui Yee and so on...(lazy 2 write out...too many) went 4 visitation during CNY...haha..
We actually went to around 11 houses i think...
Very tired wei..from 10 morning to 12 midnight...But very fun!!
got loads of ang paos..hahahah!!
Enjoyed it very much.. It's been a long time since i've ever enjoyed myself..haha